This feeling has been a pain in my arse for the past how ever many months, 9+ i cant be dealing with it anymore because its affecting my growth and i cant be going back into a black hole to exist within my own fantasical brain..
im new to astrology from what ive managed to gather moon in 7th and venus square pluto have been reatarding my emotions and logical clarity. and create a cycle of 'falling head over heels' for her everytime i see her. im in my saturn return mad crazy visions and change is happeneing an im sort of tiptoeing on the edge of the bridge thinking im capable of flying. believe me i can convince myself of anything!this is my natal w/trasits http://s39.photobucket.com/user/fullerideas/media/natalmewtransits_zps1ad30b05.gif.html?filters[user]=139217050&filters[recent]=1&sort=1&o=1
hope that worked busy morning trying to figure out all this.im still in contact with the said person i tried not to but it feels worse, atleast if she continues to keep saying not gonna happen im thinking i might get it. but at quiet times when im on my own i cant beleive it. so below synastry chart.
http://s39.photobucket.com/user/fullerideas/media/synnastrymeandH_zps319b0738.gif.html?filters[user]=139217050&filters[recent]=1&sort=1&o=0
i do feel like a one way connection so i need to somehow understand that it aint gonna happen, but still an overwhelming part of me believes i can. and nodoubt if you all say move on i will begin to conjure more so that i am right. but at such a time as i am in i know i should be working on my own aspects and evolving myself becus we did part for reasons, i myself left which makes it worse. i just havent felt like this before and to have walked on to not fully understand the feeling is too much of a risk.
so fingers crossed my post is all correct and that some lovely person will be able to help bend my iron will to a place where i am not a 'love zombie'